Determination

I want to share something I've recently learned about determination.

I know there are a handful of things I lack. Things that I am thankful that I can say that I have identified and am willing to work to fix. Most people don't find their shortcomings let alone are willing to "fix" them. The common phrase, "that's who I am" comes to mind often used in the wrong context. As in, you are constantly spitting on the ground no matter where your at, no matter how formal the event, no matter who is looking at you. VERSUS, you have a facial "tick" that is unconscious and a maybe physical health problem. Saying "that's who I am" to the former is not going to pass as Okay to your peers or anyone else because, whatever your habits, there is a time and place. Point of this part is to be willing to know what you need and be willing to fix it.
I was recently given a cd about determination. It is a religious cd and, to be honest, I don't care too much for the religious part of it. But I can empty my cup and see the underlying message. It is recorded by Joyce Meyer who happens to be known for having the largest ministry in the world, ran by a woman. Very interesting lady with a troubled upbringing. I knew what I needed to do before I heard this cd and actually it was part of my "steps" to get where I wanted to be. Not that it was a goal to get this particular cd but the overall motivational fuel to get the DETERMINATION level I wanted/needed. You don't need to believe in God/Buddha/Allah to hear the message which is why she is successful. She doesn't preach but more like "speaks". I think this is good for all for our self growth. I will tell you that I have personal big goals that I will take baby steps towards. But my point I want to share with you is that I think you should use this on a smaller personal level as well. Start off with yourself and be determined to improve yourself and your life. I would like to share this CD with you when you get here. It is VERY inspirational. I think more for me because it was the exact subject matter that I was looking for. It might come across as just an interesting and true thing to you but it hit me in the heart.. cuz it was something that I was desperate for. My lack of determination was a major setback for me. I have the ability for so much more but I am not operating at my full potential. NO ONE IS GOING TO COME ALONG AND FLIP A SWITCH! So damnit, I WILL DO IT FOR ME! i may go slow in the beginning just to get my focus points, but I will be running in no time. We all have shit that fucks with us. Why are people who are successful.. successful? Is it cuz they have less shit that stops them? I now believe it is a state of mind and we need to TAKE our goals no matter what. We all feel that we have other obligations. So did they. Some sacrifice everything for their success and some may argue that they are not happier once they've obtained their goals. There are many successes that are truly happy and didn't have to sacrifice their first borns to do it. Once we get it in our head that if that person can do it, then by the stars I can do it too. There will always be people/thoughts of doubt. We need to be stubborn in this area and DISREGARD that info. I am not promising success, but simply attempting to have a better state of mind and have more peace.

Maybe you'll feel like "...meh". but just know that I put my recommendation on it for all of us can learn about something we THINK we know about.

God will not save us. We need to save ourselves.

Love you.